Archive for November, 2013

November 27, 2013

Thank God for best friends

One bright day, when sun rose up as usual, a small little seed grew into sprout. That pretty green spot on the brown-black grass, shone with all its spirit, spreading happiness around. Surrounded by tall, strong trees and some plants, the sprout began its journey of life.

The trees and plants protected it from wild wind, heavy rains, hot sun rays. The sprout was happy and gay, innocent and safe. It enjoyed the breeze, droplets of water and warmth of sun.

Seasons passed. And sprout was growing into plant. It enjoyed its journey so far. But now it wanted something new. It would raise its head to see something beyond. Sometimes it could, sometimes it couldn’t.

One day, just while peeping around, it found two tiny-winy plants, just like itself, wandering around, holding hand in hand, singing songs of joy, stretching a broad smile on their faces. Their sight made our plant smile, unconsciously. It felt even merry.

Then for a while, our little plant looked at its empty hand. And it felt sad, as no one was holding it. The smile disappeared. ‘I want someone to be with me.’ It thought.

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November 20, 2013

Lose yourself!

I just happened to watch this movie – 8 mile. And here is one of the most awesome song I have heard from the same movie. It is by ‘The Rap God’ Eminem. 🙂
May be you guys already know it. This is just a reminder if that is the case.


Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted. one moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti
He’s nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready to drop bombs,
But he keeps on forgetting what he wrote down,
The whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won’t come out
He’s choking how, everybody’s joking now
The clock’s run out, time’s up, over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He’s so mad, but he won’t give up that
Easy, no

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November 13, 2013

My Mind, Heart And Self

Watching sullenly

Those unforgettable leaves falling

Down the trees, slowly in the wind.


Maybe to say out loud that

I am bothered by your thoughts

And tales, is an act

That needs sheer courage.

But then often I find

My self walking alone down

A snowy path on a winter eve.

And the trees which line up the way,

Bear your memories

In the form of leaves.

As my self walks,

Suddenly out of thin air,

I hear

A voice strange and weird.

It’s my brain.

Crying at the top of its lungs that-

“Romance is a two-way street!”

But even before a wink,

My heart shouts back casually

“But love isn’t! ”

And my self tries to pacify them.


Of course, it never realizes that

To serve both is a paradox.

And of course, it doesn’t succeed.

And so the confusion penetrates

Deep into the pockets of my self

As it walks down the snowy path;

Like a  lean skeleton of…

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November 5, 2013

As I seat here, alone in my cubicle, in my office, I can’t help but think about my life.

I am really worried.

I want all my dreams to come true, to have a bright future, to be rich, to be happy, to have everything that I can have. But I am not sure about a single thing. I think, think and I think. I read on websites, I listen to people speak. But I don’t act. I know everything that I am suppose to do. I have everything, all the necessary resources to aid me, and I have my people to support me. But I don’t act. I just seat in one place, and wonder, if God really has any good plans for me? Is it in my destiny to have all those things that I want? I try to find some reason, why I couldn’t do it till now. And I can really find a lot of them. But now, I don’t have any of them anymore.

I don’t have any destruction, nothing to try cry about, no pains, no tears. I do everything to keep myself happy. And I even feel happy for that moment. I have comparatively easy life. But I don’t work to achieve my dreams. I just sit and wait for things to happen. Which are obviously never going to happen on their own.

All my people have lost faith in me. Well, there are some who think I am going well and I am at least trying a bit. But it is not really that way. I just make it appear like that. To be honest, I myself have lost faith in me. The only thing I am capable to do now is to push the weighing machine needle to reach a longer distance.

But I still lie to myself that I believe I can do it. Because I really want to do it. And there has to be at least one person to trust me. Life has become quite boring. Although I am not missing a single opportunity to make it adventurous. Nothing seems to give me that eternal, long lived happiness. It’s itching. And I have become so used to it. It don’t hurt. It is just leaving some scratches. Which might disappear with time, or with some medication of false appreciation.

I feel like being trapped in a cave. I see a light at distance. I try to reach it, I walk, or rather I drag myself in that direction. I don’t even reach half way and I feel I am tired, I am done. Then I convince myself that may be it is not light. It is just an illusion. Or maybe even after reaching there I might not get out of the cave. There might be just light. And I stop.

It all sounds so depressing. That too in the middle of Diwali, the biggest festival in our country. I am suppose to write a cheerful post about how I spent my Diwali, and here I am with a mournful post. I have really done quite a few things this time that i had never done before. But as I said they make me pleased with myself but the feeling wont stay with me for long. May be I should let it go. I should enjoy the moment. After all staying happy is more important. And just thinking is not going to get me out of the cave anyway. It’s better to light a lamp, at least where I am standing, and spread some light around.

Or may be just lamp is not okay. There has to be something more…

May God give all of us strength to work hard.Diana