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September 11, 2012

Chaos… Continues


What is this feeling? Why is this loneliness… the emptiness…?

Why am I so dejected, so unhappy with my life? I have everything today. A highly paid job, a position where I always wanted to be, a lavish car I dreamed to have, a proper house of my own to live in. I am settled. Yes, I have everything today. But still, there is no satisfaction. My friends envy me. My parents shower their blessings now and then and keep on telling me how I have paid back their efforts. There is nothing else left to achieve at the moment. But still the void?

May be I know the reason. It is her. It’s been around 4 months she has gone to US. And more than a month we haven’t had a conversation. I miss her. Yes I do, a lot. Although our last conversation didn’t go well, I wish to talk to her again. I want to tell her sorry. Let us forget everything that has happened so far and make a new start to our relationship. I have realized things. I have changed. I understand things better now. May be I can deal with my emotions now. I want to give it a chance. Only if I could tell her this…

In last two years, we had come so close, as friends. She was probably the only person with whom I talked daily. I didn’t share everything with her, but I would just like to spend the time. She on the other hand, told me everything. What her mother said? How her dad reacted? How her sister cried and complained? Yeah… She was always that open to me. She believed in me.

Does she still believe in me? Can we be friends again? Will she tell me everything with same faith? What if she has changed too? If she doesn’t need me anymore, if she has already started search for another guy? What if she has forgotten me? What if I am nowhere in her life?? Then…?

What should I do? Should I approach her or leave it to destiny to decide our future?

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For those who are newly following me, I used to write this series, ‘Chaos’ few months back.

My friend blogger Namita had started her series – ‘Mirage, An Incomplete Love story’. It is a story of girl who wishes to have a guy in her life. When I read her few posts in the series, I felt so connected! I felt like I know the gal! And I also know the guy! I then decided to write the guys part 🙂

Today I just felt to append the story. What must be the situation between the two? What they must be thinking after so many months? I just wrote the guys part…

I am wondering what the girl must be thinking?

I hope you feel connected too!